Movin Back to the Farm: Magic - A Morning Reflection!

… a quality that makes something seem removed from everyday life, especially in a way that gives delight.

Now I see that using the word ‘magic’ to describe my reaction of ‘wonder in the world’ is wrong. My world is not ‘removed’ from ever day life. These ‘wonders’ are a part of my every day life that I am too distracted with my mind to notice. And then….suddenly I see!

I am currently reading The Power of Now by Eckart Tolle. The goal is to learn to live more in the ‘now’ instead of the past or future. I find that my mind is constantly talking. And when it is talking, I am not looking at what is in front of me. The process is to become aware that my mind is talking and creating feelings from those thoughts. And once aware of my feelings, then I can learn to stop those feelings, which serve to be more a distraction from experiencing the moment in front of me.

Now for the past 2 days 250 chickens have been harvested – that was not beautiful! As one friend responded YUK! (whoever comes to visit, we will be serving chicken!) The mating of chickens and ducks is violent – all part of the fullness of nature.

Which brings me to the feelings of guilt I sometimes focus on. Guilt for a quality of life which affords me to not have to work in my retirement, Guilt that I am not out ‘saving the world’ in some fashion. These are distractions. My mind pulls me into conversations, which create feelings of regret (living in the past) and feelings of guilt (living in the future). And then I see the sunflowers facing into the morning sun – and I am awakened from my mind for a moment! I am learning to accept who I am now and not regret for whom I have been or whom I should be. It is hard!