Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Magic - A Morning Reflection!


… a quality that makes something seem removed from everyday life, especially in a way that gives delight.

Now I see that using the word ‘magic’ to describe my reaction of ‘wonder in the world’ is wrong.  My world is not ‘removed’ from ever day life.  These ‘wonders’ are a part of my every day life that I am too distracted with my mind to notice.  And then….suddenly I see!

I am currently reading The Power of Now by Eckart Tolle.  The goal is to learn to live more in the ‘now’ instead of the past or future.  I find that my mind is constantly talking.  And when it is talking, I am not looking at what is in front of me.  The process is to become aware that my mind is talking and creating feelings from those thoughts.  And once aware of my  feelings, then I can learn to stop those feelings, which serve to be more a distraction from experiencing the moment in front of me.

Now for the past 2 days 250 chickens have been harvested – that was not beautiful!  As one friend responded YUK! (whoever comes to visit, we will be serving chicken!) The mating of chickens and ducks is violent – all part of the fullness of nature. 

Which brings me to the feelings of guilt I sometimes focus on.  Guilt for a quality of life which affords me to not have to work in my retirement, Guilt that I am not out ‘saving the world’ in some fashion.  These are distractions.  My mind pulls me into conversations, which create feelings of regret (living in the past) and feelings of guilt (living in the future).  And then I see the sunflowers facing into the morning sun – and I am awakened from my mind for a moment!  I am learning to accept who I am now and not regret for whom I have been or whom I should be.  It is hard!



Organic Garden

Eva and River

Speaks for itself!

Bush Beans

Garlic Drying

Harvesting the chickens



 Time to start the day!!


Sunday, June 16, 2019

Speak to the Earth and It Will Teach You


Job 12:7-8  “But ask the beasts and they will teach you, the birds of the heavens and they will tell you, or speak to the earth and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you.”
  
It has been 4 years and 4 months since I left the city and the full spectrum of miracle grow products!  Little did I understand that I had been living a co-dependent relationship with my garden.  I supplied the drugs that kept it beautiful.  If I stopped the products of fertilizer ‘drugs’, the garden would die.  Year after year I would spend money on so many different chemicals to kill bugs and weeds, chemicals to grow the vegetation I wanted, and chemicals to keep it beautiful and free from pest.  Little did I understand that I had turned my soil into dead dirt that could no longer support any living vegetation without added chemicals.

Fusion of life  (Dirt to Soil, Gabe Brown, p. 48)

Ray Archuleta (who at the time worked for the USDA’s National Technology Center in North Carolina,) had an unexpected life changing experience while visiting the farm of Gabe Brown.  .  He saw and learned that soil is a living ecosystem and realized that nature is more collaborative than competitive.  This was a moment of conversion from all his training as a government agronomist.  And from this moment he came up with a catchphrase to describe the transformation of dirt into soil – Fusion of Life.   “Dirt becomes soil not simply because there is enough organic matter in the soil but because there’s life in the soil – and not just any life but the full spectrum of soil biology.”

This book, directed to my attention from a friend Jimbo, provided me with the words that joined my physical and spiritual world.  Fusion of life concept is a signpost from nature of the crucial nature of living in a society that incorporates a ‘full spectrum’ of peoples, ideas,  & spirituality.  Nature shows us that living in a monoculture does not support a healthy environment for plants.  And if we listen to the earth, then living in a monoculture is not a healthy environment for humanity.  

I was sitting in the waiting room getting my oil changed and I started a conversation with a farmer who was sitting across from me.  Here was a man whose family had lived in this area as farmers for several generations.  He spoke about how he had come to change the way he farmed and grazed his cattle - and how successful he had been after changing his old ways that are still practiced today with his neighbors.  He spoke about how his neighbors farming and grazing was not producing the outcome their needed, but still, in the light of his success, were not able to change the way things had always been....

This is my garden today.  We live on an organic farm - no pesticides, no chemicals.  My plants are raised from seed.  Now I know lots of people are doing this already, but this is magic to me.  I have learned to let weeds stay in the garden because of what they bring to the soil, I learned to fill my boxes with several different plants rather than one kind of plant per box, I learned that some weeds attract bugs away from the vegetation I plant, I learned not to turn my soil and disrupt the 'fusion of life' underneath that I will need for a healthy garden, and I learned that I have so far to go...I am a baby at this...




What lover is this that seduces me with the sweet scent of honeysuckle mingled with the background music of the woods?


What lover is this that shows me her frightening power of lightening and thunder; wind and water, which pushes aside all barriers, setup to control her.

What lover is this that makes me want to lie down in the field to be held by the sweet scent and comfort her arms give me?

She asks only that I know her, and from that knowing, respect all of her parts.  She is the full spectrum of life neither good, nor bad.  She lays out all of her parts for me to view her loveliness. 




Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Don't listen to country radio after a breakup!

Bless me for I have been remiss, I see it has been 2 years since my last post!

Well... here it is 2019 and coming up on my 69th birthday.  In the midst of a lot of chaos we manage to grow the farm.  I continue to be amazed that it 'all' comes together.  I saw this post from my sister on Facebook from LR Knost that seem to capture the ups and downs of these 4 years.

"Life is amazing.  And then it's awful.  And then it's amazing again.  And in between the amazing and the awful its' ordinary and mundane and routine.  That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life."


We have a second barn with an apt. upstairs for our visitors!

We have added a glass enclosure on the side of my barn.  The windows are the 1840 windows from the main house.  I now have a place for my bee equipment and we have an aquaponics garden setup!

This allows me to plant seeds in March

Lettuce, thyme, chard with no bugs!

safe from the bees!







 Learning tools include: flexibility, humility, ingenuity, some skill with hammer, nails, and screws, and lots of fortitude.  There is not always a plan, but a movement towards an idea that materializes along the way!  











Sometimes it all comes together!

Morning at the farm
Farmer/Fisherman


New Addition


From the bees...Peaches
Watching the birth of baby hogs

 And so we move into 2019 with a little more knowledge, a little more confidence, and still lots to learn.
Our first Honey harvest
And so we come to the title of this blog - don't listen to country radio after a breakup.  There were heartbreaking breakups - my partner of 30 years.

       "That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. 
                                      And it's breathtakingly beautiful."