Tuesday, June 25, 2019

Magic - A Morning Reflection!


… a quality that makes something seem removed from everyday life, especially in a way that gives delight.

Now I see that using the word ‘magic’ to describe my reaction of ‘wonder in the world’ is wrong.  My world is not ‘removed’ from ever day life.  These ‘wonders’ are a part of my every day life that I am too distracted with my mind to notice.  And then….suddenly I see!

I am currently reading The Power of Now by Eckart Tolle.  The goal is to learn to live more in the ‘now’ instead of the past or future.  I find that my mind is constantly talking.  And when it is talking, I am not looking at what is in front of me.  The process is to become aware that my mind is talking and creating feelings from those thoughts.  And once aware of my  feelings, then I can learn to stop those feelings, which serve to be more a distraction from experiencing the moment in front of me.

Now for the past 2 days 250 chickens have been harvested – that was not beautiful!  As one friend responded YUK! (whoever comes to visit, we will be serving chicken!) The mating of chickens and ducks is violent – all part of the fullness of nature. 

Which brings me to the feelings of guilt I sometimes focus on.  Guilt for a quality of life which affords me to not have to work in my retirement, Guilt that I am not out ‘saving the world’ in some fashion.  These are distractions.  My mind pulls me into conversations, which create feelings of regret (living in the past) and feelings of guilt (living in the future).  And then I see the sunflowers facing into the morning sun – and I am awakened from my mind for a moment!  I am learning to accept who I am now and not regret for whom I have been or whom I should be.  It is hard!



Organic Garden

Eva and River

Speaks for itself!

Bush Beans

Garlic Drying

Harvesting the chickens



 Time to start the day!!


Sunday, June 16, 2019

Speak to the Earth and It Will Teach You


Job 12:7-8  “But ask the beasts and they will teach you, the birds of the heavens and they will tell you, or speak to the earth and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you.”
  
It has been 4 years and 4 months since I left the city and the full spectrum of miracle grow products!  Little did I understand that I had been living a co-dependent relationship with my garden.  I supplied the drugs that kept it beautiful.  If I stopped the products of fertilizer ‘drugs’, the garden would die.  Year after year I would spend money on so many different chemicals to kill bugs and weeds, chemicals to grow the vegetation I wanted, and chemicals to keep it beautiful and free from pest.  Little did I understand that I had turned my soil into dead dirt that could no longer support any living vegetation without added chemicals.

Fusion of life  (Dirt to Soil, Gabe Brown, p. 48)

Ray Archuleta (who at the time worked for the USDA’s National Technology Center in North Carolina,) had an unexpected life changing experience while visiting the farm of Gabe Brown.  .  He saw and learned that soil is a living ecosystem and realized that nature is more collaborative than competitive.  This was a moment of conversion from all his training as a government agronomist.  And from this moment he came up with a catchphrase to describe the transformation of dirt into soil – Fusion of Life.   “Dirt becomes soil not simply because there is enough organic matter in the soil but because there’s life in the soil – and not just any life but the full spectrum of soil biology.”

This book, directed to my attention from a friend Jimbo, provided me with the words that joined my physical and spiritual world.  Fusion of life concept is a signpost from nature of the crucial nature of living in a society that incorporates a ‘full spectrum’ of peoples, ideas,  & spirituality.  Nature shows us that living in a monoculture does not support a healthy environment for plants.  And if we listen to the earth, then living in a monoculture is not a healthy environment for humanity.  

I was sitting in the waiting room getting my oil changed and I started a conversation with a farmer who was sitting across from me.  Here was a man whose family had lived in this area as farmers for several generations.  He spoke about how he had come to change the way he farmed and grazed his cattle - and how successful he had been after changing his old ways that are still practiced today with his neighbors.  He spoke about how his neighbors farming and grazing was not producing the outcome their needed, but still, in the light of his success, were not able to change the way things had always been....

This is my garden today.  We live on an organic farm - no pesticides, no chemicals.  My plants are raised from seed.  Now I know lots of people are doing this already, but this is magic to me.  I have learned to let weeds stay in the garden because of what they bring to the soil, I learned to fill my boxes with several different plants rather than one kind of plant per box, I learned that some weeds attract bugs away from the vegetation I plant, I learned not to turn my soil and disrupt the 'fusion of life' underneath that I will need for a healthy garden, and I learned that I have so far to go...I am a baby at this...




What lover is this that seduces me with the sweet scent of honeysuckle mingled with the background music of the woods?


What lover is this that shows me her frightening power of lightening and thunder; wind and water, which pushes aside all barriers, setup to control her.

What lover is this that makes me want to lie down in the field to be held by the sweet scent and comfort her arms give me?

She asks only that I know her, and from that knowing, respect all of her parts.  She is the full spectrum of life neither good, nor bad.  She lays out all of her parts for me to view her loveliness. 




Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Don't listen to country radio after a breakup!

Bless me for I have been remiss, I see it has been 2 years since my last post!

Well... here it is 2019 and coming up on my 69th birthday.  In the midst of a lot of chaos we manage to grow the farm.  I continue to be amazed that it 'all' comes together.  I saw this post from my sister on Facebook from LR Knost that seem to capture the ups and downs of these 4 years.

"Life is amazing.  And then it's awful.  And then it's amazing again.  And in between the amazing and the awful its' ordinary and mundane and routine.  That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life."


We have a second barn with an apt. upstairs for our visitors!

We have added a glass enclosure on the side of my barn.  The windows are the 1840 windows from the main house.  I now have a place for my bee equipment and we have an aquaponics garden setup!

This allows me to plant seeds in March

Lettuce, thyme, chard with no bugs!

safe from the bees!







 Learning tools include: flexibility, humility, ingenuity, some skill with hammer, nails, and screws, and lots of fortitude.  There is not always a plan, but a movement towards an idea that materializes along the way!  











Sometimes it all comes together!

Morning at the farm
Farmer/Fisherman


New Addition


From the bees...Peaches
Watching the birth of baby hogs

 And so we move into 2019 with a little more knowledge, a little more confidence, and still lots to learn.
Our first Honey harvest
And so we come to the title of this blog - don't listen to country radio after a breakup.  There were heartbreaking breakups - my partner of 30 years.

       "That's just living heartbreaking, soul-healing, amazing, awful, ordinary life. 
                                      And it's breathtakingly beautiful."

Sunday, December 11, 2016

What Winter Has Brought On

We have been very busy preparing for winter or... the end of times!  Because the amount of food we have killed, processed and frozen is sustainable!!  And the best part is -  this is our first year and we didn't really know what we were doing!  Just think what next year will bring with all we have learned from our mistakes and successes.

From Ten of our Hogs

To 900 lbs of Pork

From 200 Roosters & Hens


To Beautifully Packed Goodness


It has been nice not to have to wake up early and work so hard to feed and water so many animals.  We still have a few rabbits, ducks, turkeys and guinea hens roaming about.

And From the Garden!


We are in our winter garden now with spinach, mustard greens, broccoli, Garlic, Beets and maybe carrots if they grow bigger.  I learned that even freezing weather with ice on their leaves does not hurt these vegetables.  The leaves become frozen, then they unfreeze and I pick them and eat them.

Alyce and I joined a fishing club from the senior center and they love our pond.  One of the great benefits is that we now know there are fish and we are catching them!  One of the men caught a 4.4lb bass that was 22inches long!  They have updated our 30 year old fishing poles, and are taking on the project of fixing our pier so we can actually use it!  They found several 'deep holes' in the shallow end where the big bass hang out!  Fishing is much more fun when you are catching fish!

Our last Farmers Market is next week.  It has been hard to wake up and head out in low 20's weather - but we did it! and are better for it.  My yearly physical was greatly improved!

So... we welcome the quiet of winter where new plans will be formulated.  Lots of reading to do and maybe time for relationships!

A Merry Christmas to all and a happy new year from Hearwood Farm!!


A Christmas Meditation From The Farm

A Sacred Spoon

I have a wooden spoon that was given to me by a friend on her birthday.  It was a gift she gave everyone who came to her party.  She brought the spoons from India where she was working on an academic project.  This has been a perfect spoon for cooking.  

One day as I stood stirring over a pot of soup, it struck me that every time I use this spoon I find myself transported to the times I spent with my friend -and I would smile. 





And so this spoon had taken on a life beyond it’s common use.  This spoon had become a conduit, that created a quiet space in the midst of a my busy life.  











Sacred, Holy, Love, God…. Each one of us has our own meaning for these words.  For me, these words represent a place of awe and wonder.  A place where I am caused to stop, stand, and recognize that there is something greater beyond myself.  And it dawned on me this morning; this spoon has become for me an experience of sacred, holy, love, and God in the midst of my life.  For it makes me stop and remember that this common, humble spoon was a gift of relationship from a friend – a friend I haven’t talked to in awhile.  And my thoughts move on from there to other relationships where I have fallen down in my relating.  And from there – a humble reminder of my weaknesses and a pondering of my soul.

God is love, and he/she who abides in love abides in God and God in them.

So…I thank my friend Diane for her gift that has led me to this Christmas mediation. A gift that keeps giving and has made my life better because of her act of friendship – where God lives in the midst of!

Monday, October 3, 2016

The Arrival of the North Wind


The North wind has a particular sound and smell.  When it arrives, there is a subtle change in the air and Fall begins!  This morning when I opened my window, the North Wind blew in and I was immediately filled with images of sweaters, falling leaves, and baking pies all rolled into one immense feeling of excitement.

Yesterday I finished the fall planting in the rain - beets, carrots, spinach, mustard greens, chard, broccoli.  There are eggplant, potatoes, okra, and earlier beets getting a head start for fall.

Did you know there are 2 kinds of poop! - hot and cold.  Cold poop (rabbit) can be directly applied to the garden.  Hot poop (chicken) is put on a compost pile to heat it up.  I learned this last Saturday from a family friend.   So because I have been using 'cold' rabbit poop, this compost pile won't be ready for at least 2 years!  So moving to chicken poop!!   It really 'takes a village' because I look at the pictures if I have to read directions.  Getting information from people is a lot easier.


Along those same lines - another friend came to visit that same Saturday -  he was a bee expert.  He looked at my hives and in 10 minutes had completely reconfigured the 2 hives into 1 heathy hive.  Turns out that one of the hives was missing the queen.  He reduced that stagnant hive to one box and plopped it right on top of the healthy hive!  I then learned that I was starving all my bees!  I just assumed that if I fed my bees they would become dependent on me.  Yes! I put them in a box and they are dependent on me!  So, as it turns out, one has to feed bees.   So much for letting nature take care of itself!   Since my hive was reconfigured and I feed it regularly , several people have been stung in the face (including me) at quite a distance from the hive!  I can't go in my garden without a bee chasing me.  Nature!!! so unpredictable!!


My bean vines are beautiful.  But no matter how I cooked them, they didn't taste that good.  Even if I cook them in butter with onions, the skin was tough.  Well, it turns out they are not beans, they are cow peas!  I was using a recipe from my John Besh cookbook to make gumbo and there was a picture of my beans!  The description under the picture said purple hull peas!  You have to shell them to get the peas out!  Wow, that was a revelation!  So I go and pick a big bunch of these wonderful peas and sit down on the porch to enjoy the cooler weather and shell these peas.  Half hour later, I have a small bowl of peas - enough for one person.  I am not growing these next year!!


Yesterday, my son brought home young turkeys and baby quail!  
Baby Quail in hot house
Turkeys hiding from other animals


















      

Part of the other animals about 200 young roosters
More Baby chickens

roaming duck mass



Looking in the hoop house, I was surprised by these characters...And I don't even know what these are! 
And of course...there are the hogs.  I talked about Buttercup (a very big teenage girl) last blog.  Usually she pushes past the electric fence and is willing to take the current for what lies OUTSIDE THE FENCE)  Yesterday morning, very early, as I was feeding the chickens, she comes up and I watch her lift up on her hind legs and try to push over the garbage barrel that holds the chicken feed!  She usually has an entourage of the newest baby hogs (which are not so small anymore).  The other day, the chicken coop was left open and I found her and several of her entourage in the hoop house.  Scared the chickens to death.  Like I said earlier - shoulda never named her!! 

We are now eating the meat we are raising along with the vegetables we are growing.  This is an amazing thing when you come from the suburbs!  

The kids are digging some kind of hole in the bog.  There are all sorts of tools out there and they come back covered in mud.  I was going past them in the car and it suddenly dawned on me that they might be trying to did a tunnel under the road!!  Freaked me out - I checked on it - they were not! They have a garden also - beans & pumpkins.  For some reason they dug out the pumpkins and put them in small pots in the tree house.  I told them that the pumpkins were going to grow big and the treehouse porch may not be the best solution!  Those darn kids!!  

There are just some things about this life that are not pleasant - for instance - the stink bugs have returned for the fall.  They are all over the screens and will find their way into the house into our furniture...  This will be followed by the ladybugs.  The flies are everywhere and follow you into the house every time you open the door.  The mice are working to get into the big house.  So Fall is coming and along with it - the good, the bad, and the ugly....




Friday, September 9, 2016

Damn it! Just give me a cold Corona with Lime

It was a long day that deserved a cold beer.  I checked in the frig and I found 1 pony Corona among the many craft beers.  Pulled it out, added my lime and sat in the rocker on the back porch.  It was one of those moments when you decide to take a stand - I prefer a cold Corona to a craft beer!  No more pretense - just give me a Corona and be done with it!

Next topic - Life and Death on the Farm.  So little Camille tells me that one of the girl rabbits died and dad fed it to the hogs - just part of the process of death around here.  We had found 2 baby ducks and 3 baby chicks that had been picked on by the larger chickens and we rescued them.  Rachel put glue on the heads of the baby ducks because their brains were showing.  We took care of those baby animals and nursed them to health.  Some animal went into the shack where we keep the baby ducks and chickens.  It pulled out the 2 baby ducks and left the 3 chickens!  And that was that.

Elijah found a baby chicken roaming around the yard alone and brought it back into the chicken yard to place with one of the mother hens.  As he stood there, another hen came up and plucked the head off of the baby chick - he came back sobbing.  Two of the rabbits died of heat - they got fed to the hogs also.  I was putting grass under the rabbit cages and noticed that some rabbit fur was on the ground.  Now this is what a mother rabbit uses to build her nest.  I looked up and there was a baby rabbit laying on the bottom of the cage.  We had miscalculated when the litter would be born and did not have a birthing box in her cage.  I ran for help and was told just to put a birthing box in and put the new rabbit in the box - which I did.  Zac came over and told me to put some cut grass in the box since sthe mother had no more fur to fill the box.  I thought the mother was putting the grass in the box, but she was eating.  The baby is still alive, but is just laying on the wood.  Will it live or not!

I killed and cleaned my first rabbit.  Did you know that rabbits can smell death?  So when Zac brought in another rabbit, it screamed because it knew.  I have to say that the rabbit looking at me while I break it's neck is disconcerning!  I helped Zac kill some ducks and chickens and I kept yelling that they were still alive! - but they weren't.

In other news...the tomatoes have gone crazy.  I was away for 3 weeks and the garden looked good - just had to do some weeding.  We have had lots of births - another litter of hogs, several litters of baby bunnys, we got 200 free baby roosters (that should be intersting later).
New litter of rabbits

Elijah holding a new baby rabbit

New litter of baby hoglets

First crop of potatoes

Lots of visits from cousins

My first sunflower garden

baby rabbits growing up

Eva playing with baby hoglets

200 free baby roosters

The end is near!

Thank goodness - a friend that helps out.

Oh Yes, we built a zip line!  And we have a paddle boat!  We have had lots of visitors this summer and there was lots to see and do.  Now the first signs of fall are showing and time to think about a fall garden.

As my son says - It is all good!!